cool as the deep blue ocean

i had a job interview this week (my attempt to get away from my boss and actually get into a job where i'm interested in the work) and it was in a totally different environment from where i am currently working. i was amazed at how quiet it was, no personal conversations taking place between cubicles, i couldn't even hear anyone talking on a phone. it was serene and professional, and i felt instantly drawn to it.

i hate interviewing because you never know what kind of strange question they're going to throw at you that you are completely unprepared for. no matter how much you prepare in advance, they always have at least one question that throws you off and that you have no idea how to answer. i emailed the 4 people i interviewed with (1 in HR, 2 editors and 1 editorial assistant) to thank them for meeting with me and for the interviews, but i haven't heard back from any of them. i wonder if that's a bad sign.

it's going to snow yet again tonight and be a messy commute tomorrow and i'm doing all i can to improve my mood during this awful winter but it's not very easy. i miss the days of longer sunlight, and the warm summer air. i hate it when the days are short, dull and lifeless, lacking all color. i get so happy at the end of the work day when it's time to go home. just because i know i'm going someplace warm and comfortable, and i don't have to listen to inane conversations going on all the time all around me..

i know way more than i need to know about the son of the woman who sits in the cube behind me, and his fever and temperaments, and his morning bus ride to school, and her diet, and all the other crap she talks about constantly. some people just enjoy the sound of their voice, and start talking and then never stop. and i have no idea why anyone would think it's appropriate to shout something out to someone sitting 4 or 5 cubicles down from them.

my closest work friend is on maternity leave, and it kind of sucks because i miss talking to her, she sat in the cubicle right next to mine and i think she will be coming back in march. conversing (quietly!) and being social during work somehow makes the time pass faster, even though it can also be distracting at times. i guess there are always compromises, but there has to be a better place for me to thrive and work than where i am.

it was fun leaving work on tuesday in the middle of the day for the interview. i was early so i had some time to kill and went to starbucks and sipped a chai latte. i sat by the window and watched the people outside walking by and watched the rain fall. it was a nice, peaceful feeling- to break out of the daily routine.

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