feeling good

is a wonder what lots of sleep, relaxation, a week of meditation, writing and exercise can do for your state of mind. tonight was the first time in a long time that i felt like myself again, like i could enjoy music and beauty/fashion and confidence and feel hope. have that feeling that i have a lot to look forward to and have choices to make my life what i want it to be. i need to stop ignoring myself and embrace myself. it's the only way to stay sane, and stay out of my own way.

i need to go out and do things and try things, otherwise i will always be frustrated and wondering 'what if?' the days of fearing failure must end, because what if i try something and it leads to great success?

all i need now is my banking card back (my account was hacked into a few days ago) and i'll be free to download good songs like this