your mind's landscape

some weird wave of manic energy took over me during lunch today while i was out browsing at a jewelry store. i chatted up the sales guy when he commented about my work picture ID that i had hooked onto my shirt. then i realized i didn't have enough cash for my items, so i asked the salesgirl to hold them for me while i ran to the bank for cash, and ran back to the jewelry store for my items. i bought this pretty orange and yellow round pendant (i love it because you can adjust the necklace length by clasping it in different places). click on the pic to see better detail.

and a pair of rose goldish hoop earrings. they are obviously fake costume jewels, but still pretty, and only $2.99 each. the other side of the pendant is an angel carving which i don't have the patience to photograph right now. so it can be worn both ways.

the hoops are that in between size so they are not too big or small. i love them! next friday night my sister is hosting a party for liasophia jewelry which i cannot wait for. they have a website which has really fueled my anticipation for that party- liasophia.com. too bad all the cocktail rings are probably too big to fit me, I’ll probably end up getting a necklace or earrings.

i think i got that surge of manic energy because i spent so much time this week either at home or waiting at a doctor's office. i was so tired and weak on tuesday that I slept all day, I thought i had the flu. but all i had was a regular cold and slight fever. i also had an ear irrigation done which was strange because i was having strong pains by my left ear and jaw so that seems to have taken care of that. all this caused me to miss 3 days of work. so i only worked monday and friday of this week. i felt totally useless and lazy, though in a way i got the vacation from my cruise vacation that i was hoping for. it's a good thing i still had plenty of paid time off accrued to cover all those days. I was still angry though because I like to save my days off for the winter time when the weather sucks and staying in bed is way more appealing than going to work.

It’s so weird that when i actually have spending money, i get more picky about the stuff i buy and am more reluctant to shop. my first instinct is always to hold on to extra money in case i need it later, but i'm trying to get better about giving myself the things that i want. who's to say i will need my savings in case i lose my job, or get a lower paying job? i am careful not to go overboard though and always save more than i spend. but buying one or two nice things for myself every now and then isn't a crime or anything. with every potential purchase i start thinking, is it frivolous? do i already have this type of thing or article of clothing? do i need to add to my clutter? what will i get rid of or donate in order to make room for this thing? yesterday i bought a pair of really cheap blue flats and immediately got rid of 3 articles of clothing (that I never wear) from my closet. have to try to keep a balance..

song of the day. it sounds almost cheerful on a lovely sunny day: