i don't want to live here anymore

this has been a tough week. end of the month, crazy at work. and on top of that, i can't sleep anymore. not because i'm not exhausted, not because i have insomnia, but because the people living upstairs from me think it's perfectly fine to make obscene amounts of noise from about 12am to 4am EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. i shit you not. i have been a sleep-deprived, overworked wreck. i try calling the police, that ends the noise for one late tuesday evening party upstairs. that's it. the rest of the nights is the same story. i go up and knock on the door and ask politely for them to keep it down because it's 2:30am, they say they will, and then it just gets louder. it sounds like they are moving in or moving out every night, with all the dragging, scraping, banging, thundering noise that they fucking make. i am so fed up i actually started looking for apartments. no one cares at all.

i call my landlady serveral times, leave her angry voicemails and emails, pleading with her to speak to these rude assholes, and nothing gets done. she doesn't even return my calls. i give her all my numbers and ask that she please get back to me to let me know if anything AT ALL can be done about this, especially because i am an excellent tenant and always pay my rent not only on time, but early, and still i don't hear anything from her. i even asked if there are any other free apartments in my building that i might be able to take instead of mine so i don't have to leave my address completely. i don't know what else to do. i was just about ready the other night to sleep out in the hallway with the bugs that come in from the back yard. i was that desperate for peace and quiet.

the thing is, i'm a light sleeper so i always sleep with earplugs. i even did this living at home because any noise would wake me up, even someone's loud talking in the next bedroom. so you can imagine me trying to drown out this noise from my neighbors with some measly earplugs. they don't quite do the trick. especially when it's 3 or 4 or 5am and i'm in a deep sleep and it sounds like some 300 pound person just fell on his ass upstairs just above my bed and i'm jolted awake. i live in a studio, the ceilings are low so these people are practically on top of me. it's so not fun. and i'm not even going to get into how pissed i get that i can never meditate as long as i want to. i was doing so well with it every night and feeling great as a result, but that is virtually impossible now.

now i feel like i live on their schedule. i'll snatch any precious quiet time i can, try to take advantage and take a nap or meditate, or watch a movie that i've been wanting to see. or just plain relax. and turn off the air conditioning when i'm freezing just because i wanted it on to have something else making noise to drown out the neighbor's a little bit more. i thought about blasting some really annoying music at 4 or 5am and see how they like it.they wouldn't have shit to complain about. and at least i'd have some vindication. i'd say i was just doing it to drown out the noise they were making, since nothing else seems to work and nothing else seems to make them stop. i'm the kind of person who cannot get by on very little sleep. i feel out of sorts and like my mind is slowing down. i need a lot of sleep in order to function normally. and i don't see how asking that people not make so much noise between midnight and 7am on sunday through thursday nights is too much to ask.