anticipating a miracle

so i finally figured out how to get my picture back, yay!

this pic to the right is of my aunts on mother's day. and my mom (in the blue top)

i was absolutely falling asleep at work today. i did not sleep well last night at all. busy weekend, but in a good way. i'm just not used to it. i got a call from my mom a little while ago saying that i should come to staten island tomorrow night or wednesday morning because my sister is about to have her baby. they are inducing her labor because the baby is big and she has not dilated. whatever that means. i hope it is a swift labor and she gets through it without tremendous pain. whenever i have read about women giving birth they've always said it's extremely painful, but they are willing to endure it because they know their baby is on the other side.

i can't seem to imagine that i will be looking at my nephew's face in about a day or so. strange. things will never be the way they were from now on. my whole family dynamic is shifting. i can't wait to finally know what he looks like, instead of imagining the way he might be. :) my 4 aunts have always treated me and loved me as if i were their own daughter, and i know i will be the same. my nephew is a part of me, and i know i will love him as if he's mine too.

i have been so busy lately that i have not even had a chance to watch the movie i got in the mail a few days ago from netflix that i've been dying to see. i saw the latest version of the stepford wives which was kind of dumb, and i kept reading online about how the original was so much better because it was essentially a horror movie, with a slow build-up to the final reveal. so i rented the original version which came out in 1975. it's still sitting here unwatched and i have no idea when i'll be able to see it. tomorrow night is another meditation seminar, though i'm not sure how i'll be getting to that since the teacher sent me a file containing the time/location details and the file is damaged. i can't open it. i guess that's what i get for paying so late. but there was really no other time.

this summer will not be like any other summer before. i will be an aunt. my parents will become grandparents, and my sister and brother-in-law will become new parents. it's going to be strange, but all we can really count on is change. and this is such an exciting one.