wedding hell

just to give you an idea of what i've been going through for the past few weeks i will give you the list below

what i hate about weddings-

1. tight uncomfortable bridesmaid dress
2. 5,000 pictures and videos on which I fear how I will look
3. the goddamn bouquet toss
4. expensive hotel rooms because the wedding takes place hours away
5. hair and makeup being done early in the morning
6. souvenirs that serve no purpose
7. wearing heels from 12:30pm to 1am
8. being the only single person over 30 in my family (single as in not married)
9. bouquet toss with all my younger cousin's girlfriends (in their early 20s) surrounding me
10. being made to feel like a loser by my family because I am not married and somehow am "incomplete" without a man and a big diamond ring.
11.sitting in a limo in a tight dress for half an hour
12. trying to eat dinner in a tight dress
13. being exhausted before the reception even starts because i was in the bridal party and had all the prep
14. pretending to be happy when there is a possibility that i will lose the love of my life, and all my dreams will go to shit
15. when the DJ asks all couples to go on the dance floor (this only happens when I have no date)
16. having nothing to talk about with your cousins because they are looking at their phones or talking about the Kardashians or talking about getting tattoos
17. two drunk people sitting on either side of me shouting over me to talk to each other
18. staying in a hotel room alone because I didn't have a date
19. sitting in traffic for 3 hours to get to the rehearsal dinner
20. hoping i don't have a panic attack during the ceremony (because it will all be caught on video)
21. regretting the way i got my hair styled.
22. the expense which was close to $800 including dress, hair, makeup, gift, hotel room, etc

that about sums things up..